The idea is scary

It is April 21, 2013. Currently sitting at my bed sans the bed sheets as I am washing them in my tiny little dryer in my studio. Laptop on my upside down Angry Birds pig and a tub of ice cream within arms reach. Pondering, pondering, pondering -

Last night I attended my first Art Center Grad Show, for those who know me well enough, you all know that I want to attend that school some time in the near future. But it didn't occur to me until last night, just how much I wanted to attend that school. Walking around and seeing all the work that STUDENTS made was just so inspiring. I had half a brain to just go up to admissions on Monday and apply - LOL, but that's obviously not going to happen.

After getting my mind blown for well over 30 minutes (we showed up really late but just enough time) I started to question what my life is going to be like in the next 6 months. If I really wanted to go back to school the smartest decision would be to go back home this September, keep working at Hypothesis, hone into my practices and self development, SAVE MONEY & then go back to school in 2015 and become a full time student. That would be the "ideal" plan, but becoming a full time student would mean I have to let go of working full time (duh) - I'd let my experience and well, my income, suffer.

I also thought that if I move back home I'd be letting go of my lifestyle here in LA and it really does bring a tear to my eye to potentially let go of what I have here. I'm happy but I know that I've plateaued with my design adventure/journey. If living here in LA means I can't go back to school, then maybe going back home would be the best option for me regardless of what my plans may be soon after I move back. I think about how much money I could be saving... (I could save up to 9k a year if I go back home.) But what does moving back home mean for me other than to save money? I'd go back to living under my parents. Rules will be instilled, curfews & limitations - do I really want that? Does my $800/month for rent buy me my freedom? Yes. But does it take away from being able to go back to school to broaden my talent and go to the school I've been wanting to go to? Yes.

Another option would be to transition to a new job, become a production designer and learn from a new company that way I'd be making money AND learning something new. It brings up the question of whether or not I need to go back to school. A lot of what I've learned in this past year was based thoroughly off of work experience and teaching myself new things, a lot of which school did not teach me in two years... so do I really have to go back to school? Not entirely.

I guess the bigger picture here is ... should I move back home in September?

Everything else after that will play itself... but moving back... do I dare?

Doin' Work!

Haha - Alrighty world time to check in to future self. I've been MIA lately and it's for a good reason... what reason? These reasons:

Been working on some personal projects! The first two were produced through the task of a Skillshare class. I am absolutely ecstatic that I found Skillshare -- actually, I lie, I didn't find Skillshare a friend of mine did (Thank you Peter) so I'm super happy that he shared that with me. My first class was a handlettering class, the next was an illustration class. They were both amazing and extremely helpful, I'll write out an entire process post on each of my projects soon. The third one was just something I wanted to do during my vacation, I forgot when I had a vacation that allowed me the time to illustrate this BUT there was one, haha. Again, I'll go through the process later. But yesm, I have been practicing and I am really proud with what I made. Dear Future Krislam, in the next year or so you better be looking at these illustrations/handletter pieces and scoff in disgust, seriously. 

Otherwise, things that aren't design related...I've also been up to (okay, I lie most of it is design related but not necessarily GRAPHIC design, nom'sayien?):

 OH, I also have a gym membership now :) 

Okies, taking off... blog later. Au revoir world !!

Sans Wisdom Teeth

I know, I'm terrible at this blogging thing -- Forgive me future self!

ANYWAYS,

Last weekend I had the pleasure of getting my bottom two wisdom teeth extracted. As much as I want to sit here and say how brave I was during the entire procedure would just be all lies. I admit I was terrified for days before surgery, so much so that I lost some sleep over it and come to the actual procedure... well let's just say I had to cry for my mom -- a little. Of course I'm not going to bag on the dentist and her ways of operating but I feel like there could of been a little more heart taken into consideration when handling the head that was still attached to the rest of my body.

Long story short, it took about 5 bottles to numb me on my right side and about 15 or so on my left. Yea, that happened. Procedure lasted less than 10 min and I was out the door! (Course numbing me took about 45 min, LOL) The pain wasn't entirely excruciating until I got an infection on my right side. Till this day, now day 9, my right side still hurts and I'm still dependent on Ibuprofen during the day and Vicodin during the night. But I'm happy to say that I'm glad they're finally out and I'm healing quite alright.

I really really hope that my top wisdom teeth don't plan on ever coming out or else I'd be really sad to have to go through this again.

Worse part of the entire thing? How much blood was spewing out of my mouth after surgery AND the amount of medicine I'm on AND the side effects. Killer --- thank you mom for such an amazing immune system (that's sarcasm, btw)

OH -- and the fact that I couldn't eat anything. Worst. Part. Ever.

LOOK, LOOK HOW MANY THERE ARE!

Otherwise, I didn't mind looking like a chipmunk for awhile :)

Here's a look at my puffay cheek progression LOL, you can obviously tell when I had to go back to the dentist for an emergency check up. HAHA -- 

 Here I am present day! :) My right side still hurts, but again yay medicine. No more puffay cheeks though !